Over the last few weeks, I have been self-isolating with two of my grandsons, age 9 and 6.
It’s been a challenging few weeks, especially now I don’t have the stamina I used to have!!!
One thing I have been very aware of is how they hate not to know where I am!!!
If I go out of the room, go to the bathroom, go outside to hang washing, it’s only a matter of minutes before I hear “Nanny…. Nanny”!!!!!
I must admit to feeling exasperated, not being able to go to the loo without them calling me!!!!!
“We thought you had gone!!!”
“Do you really think I would just leave you”!! I say in exasperation!!!
“why would I just go and leave you?!!”
Then, the other day, it was as if I heard a voice saying, “well ! you are just the same”!!! How many times do you call, and ask, where I am! Despite all I have promised, despite my love and mercy, despite me saying I will never leave you or forsake you, you still question, doubt and are fearful in case I will leave you”!!!
How God must be so exasperated with me!!! I can now understand how he must despair of me, when I call and question where he is, wondering what he is doing in a situation of my own making, limiting what he wants to give me, to help me.
I need to take these words and print them on my heart….Mathew 28:20….”and behold I am with you always, to the end of the age”!!