Just recently, I read of someone coming out of an experience, where their faith and trust and everything they had believed in, had been challenged by an overwhelming life changing situation.
They knew and loved God, they knew deep down he would not fail them, but Satan knows when to sow big doubts and fears as he sees us at our most vulnerable.
This resonated with me as I too had such an experience in 2013, a year after life changing surgery for mouth cancer.
It’s possible in these uncertain and bewildering times we are living,that we may question, we may feel a lack of faith, a lack of motivation to read our Bible, to even attempt to pray.
BUT….. the amazing and wonderful thing about this is, we have an intercessor, we have our loving Saviour who is praying for us, he can hear our groanings and see our tears and take them to our Heavenly father, who Loves us, and will never let us go.
Its when we come out of this wilderness experience, we can look back and see how gently we were carried through, to come again to a place of renewed faith, love, and a deeper knowledge of Gods never failing Love and Grace through our Lord Jesus Christ.
I wrote the following when I was at my lowest ebb.
A Wilderness Experience.
I feel as if I’m wandering
In a place that’s dead and dry,
I have no motivation
To get up from where I lie
But I have to make myself get up
And face another day,
Ignore the fact that once again
This day feels flat and grey.
Where has my faith and trust gone
In the God I love and know
Without his help and comfort
I cannot feed and grow,
Why am I feeling like I do
Tears never far away
Yet I have so much
To thank God for every day.
Maybe it’s not that God has gone
But I have failed to pray
To give him full control
To guide me each and every day
Failed to take his outstretched hand
Missed hearing words of love
Trying hard to cope myself
Not aware of God above.
Help me Lord to once again
Say” not my will but thine”
Take control I truly pray,
And like, the water turned to wine,
Let me let you mould me
Until you only see
Your will lived out within my life
And nothing left of me.